Me Without You
June 15, 2019
Me Without You
Yesterday I entered a bit of nostalgia. My facebook timeline mentioned a memory of Father’s Day a few years ago.
Father’s Day.
This is the first Father’s Day when my Daddy is in heaven.
The first thoughts were sad. Theadora, who was laying on her tummy in the office talking to Faux, one of the office dogs, has never seen her Granddaddy. I haven’t written anything in any of my books since he’s passed – more likely because I’ve been working two jobs but it feels like there’s no one to discuss book ideas with. I wonder if I’ve made the right decisions; Daddy would listen and he’s been in this position before. On the ride home the radio show host asked “what does your Father want for Father’s Day?” and I remembered all Daddy ever wanted all the time was just to spend time with us.
Then I realized, as I do every time I’m sad about Daddy being gone, that I’m being selfish. Daddy had spent more than two-thirds of his life without his Father. None of us ever met our Grandfather Pearson – whom Thea was named after. This is the first Father’s Day that my Daddy gets to hang out with his father – and with Jesus! How cool is that?
Daddy isn’t in pain anymore. He’s running, tending trees, worshiping Jesus, dancing with his Mom, you know… silly things we Earth-bound think about as being fun. I wonder how many questions he’s asked God – he had a long long list of them we used to discuss.
I realized reading my last few posts leading up to his death that I’d been writing about eternity, “Finals Week” was published one week before he passed. Odd, in retrospect, it’s like God was letting us know in Daddy’s way – with a bit of humor, as this cartoon was his idea! – that He was about to take Daddy home.
Home (Heaven) is where we belong. On Earth, we love and learn. We miss those gone, but we look forward to meeting our heavenly Father (God) one day!
Our love is forever. I will love my Daddy forever.
Thanks for reading!
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~Nancy Tart
